Happy Sunday ...

I'm clueless on what to write today...
clueless on what to do later...
clueless on what movie to watch...
clueless on what to wear on Monday (I've ran out of summer clothes!!..too bad...)..
clueless on what meals to prepare for next week....

There is only one thing I am sure of at the moment: I am definitely looking forward to a lazy Sunday :) that's it.. A worry-free Sunday :) just a day of lying and bumming around...junk food everywhere..a turned-off alarm and that i-don't-care-if-i-look-like-s**t- attitude...

Thank God for Sundays!!

Duwag ka ba sa pag-ibig?

Matapang ka ba sa ibang bagay pwera sa pag-ibig?

Ikaw ba yun tipong kunwari masaya, tawa ng tawa o kaya patawa ng patawa sa iba pero pag mag-isa na eh lumalabas na lahat ng nakatagong lungkot sa puso?

Nagdalawang isip ka na ba kung gagawin mo ang isang bagay o hindi...yun tipong, naiipit ka sa isang bagay na pwedeng makapagpasaya sayo pero pwede din makasakit sayo?

Natakot ka bang subukan ang isang bagay kasi baka maulit ulit yun dati?

Kung puro oo ang sagot mo sa mga tanong ko, malamang oo din ang sagot mo sa tanong ko sa title ng blog na 'to...

Eh bakit nga naman kasi hindi? Nakakatakot naman talaga ang magmahal. Kasi sabi nga nila, pag nagmahal ka, hindi pwede na hindi ka masasaktan...

Pero iba iba naman kasi ang klase ng sakit. Meron sakit na pag tinulog mo, kinabukasan hindi na ganun kasakit...meron naman na taon bago mawala...may mababaw...may malalim....

Ano nga ba talaga dapat? ang matakot na lang magmahal o sumubok ulit kahit pa masaktan? Kung ako yun tatanungin, kahit iyakin at sobrang balat-sibuyas ako, pipiliin ko pa din yun pangalawa....bakit?

...kasi masarap magmahal...masarap mahalin...masarap magbahagi ng sarili mo sa isang tao, masarap mag alaga, masarap pag may nag aalaga sayo.

...kasi hindi mo malalaman hanggat hindi mo sinusubukan...parang sugal...kelangan may itaya ka, bago mo mapanalunan ang premyo....

...kasi hindi nakadepende ang buhay mo sa nakaraan...kelangan mo bigyan ng pagkakataon ang sarili mo na maging masaya, kahit gano ka nasaktan noon...iba pa din ang bukas sa kahapon..

Dati duwag din ako sa pag-ibig. Siguro lahat ng tao, duwag naman talaga sa pag-ibig. Pero ang sabi nga nila..."true love is worth all the pain, the long wait and it conquers all, including fear"...ayan, ingles na at mahirap i-transalate sa tagalog :)

Sorry seems to be the hardest word..

I just recently reconciled with a friend. It has been almost two years before I have finally realized that I was really sincerely sorry for what happened. It was a long story..

Realizations flowed through my mind...things which I have never thought of before...And suddenly, I found myself crying and wanting to say sorry...for the first time since it happened, I felt ashamed of myself....for allowing pride and anger to control me...

So when I finally had the courage to tell her, I apologized for everything that happened. It was never easy, but it was definitely worth it.. :) and the best part...she doesn't hold grudges, so I was instantly (and i would say sincerely) forgiven :)

Domesticated

I'm cooking dinner while doing the laundry...while writing this blog...talk about multi-tasking..It isn't easy but i have no choice, because nobody else would do it for me...(i miss my mother more ..;p)

The moment I come home after work, the first thing that I would do is defrost...i have gotten used to preparing my own dinner, aside from the fact that it is much cheaper, now is my only chance to learn how to cook, and the best part is, no one is obliged to eat it--but myself...fair enough ;) there's not much pressure...

Then, if my hamper says "i'm full", i would have to do the laundry at the same time (so I could sleep just in time). Washing the dishes and taking the trash out come in third and fourth respectively..

It's very tiring--the chores and stuff...but hey, this is all part of being independent--which i intend to enjoy at the moment..plus the fact that i'm being more responsible (i would like to think that I am..haha) each day.

So, right now I am embracing domesticity. To say that I am enjoying it is an overstatement. But I am getting the hang of it ;p